Everyone online called her Kitten. Her selfies were soft filters of her cosplays and her voice in voice chats sweet enough to make grown men beg. Thousands of subscribers paid just to watch her stretch on camera, to hear her giggle and say “thank you, Daddy” when the tips rolled in. She was untouchable, adored, perfect.
But late at night, when the stream ended and the praise died, she felt hollow. All that worship never scratched the itch she was ashamed to name. She wanted the opposite. She wanted to be small. Ridiculed. Seen at her worst and laughed at.
One Friday, three bottles of rosé deep, she made the channel.
secret-pig-pen
Visible only to admins. Which, in her drunken haze, she thought meant only her.
She gave it a pig emoji description, pinned a message that read “drunk and disgusting, don’t judge me (but please do),” and started uploading.
First a video: her on all fours, tits spilling out of a too-small crop top, snorting like a pig while she slapped her own ass red.
Then photos: close-ups of her tongue out, drool stringing down her chin, captions scrawled in eyeliner on her thighs—USELESS, ATTENTION WHORE, PATHETIC.
A link to a voice note, a giggeling confession: https://soundgasm.net/u/lunyan/DO-NOT-OPEN
She hit send on everything, heart hammering, pussy already slick from the shame. Then she passed out on her keyboard.
She woke to a DM ping.
waifuabuser today 3:12 AM nice channel, kitten.
Her stomach dropped. waifuabuser was one of her most loyal mods. He never spoke in the server, never posted or reacted – unless someone was attacking her. He was the white knight every egirl dreams about, keeping her discord clean without her having to stretch a finger. Months ago she gave him all the admin rights to resolve some issues trolls made. She has forgotten about it.
Kitten✨ oh my god please please delete that channel I was drunk it was a mistake
waifuabuser no
Kitten✨ i’m begging you i’ll pay you, anything just wipe it
waifuabuser you made it for someone to see i’m someone so i’m looking
He attached one of her own photos, her face smeared with lip gloss, eyes crossed, the word PIG drawn on her forehead in her own handwriting.
waifuabuser this you?
Kitten✨ stop please
waifuabuser say it say “that’s me, i’m a pig”
Kitten✨ i’m not typing that
waifuabuser then i’ll just drop the whole folder in #general let your 8k simps see what their perfect kitten does when she’s alone
A long pause. Her hands shook.
Kitten✨ that’s me i’m a pig
waifuabuser good now the voice note play it again and transcribe it word for word send it here
She did, fingers fumbling, face burning.
Kitten✨ “I’m just a dumb little kitten who needs to be told how stupid she looks right now… please someone tell me I’m garbage…”
waifuabuser you are garbage say thank you
Kitten✨ thank you
waifuabuser thank you what
Kitten✨ thank you sir
waifuabuser better.. now beg me not to post it really beg like the drunk desperate slut you were at 2am
Tears pricked her eyes. She was wet again. Hating herself for it.
Kitten✨ please sir i’m on my knees right now i’ll do anything you want just keep it between us. i’m pathetic and i know it i look so fucking stupid in those pictures please don’t let anyone else see how gross i am
waifuabuser send a new one right now same vibe prove you mean it
Her breath hitched. She angled the webcam down, knelt on her bedroom carpet still in last night’s makeup, hair a mess. She grabbed the eyeliner again, wrote DUMB across her chest, stuck her tongue out as far as it would go, gave the camera crossed eyes and a peace sign. Took the photo.
Attached it.
Kitten✨ sent
waifuabuser jesus christ you actually did it . i just asked for a picture and you write on your tits and do the best ahegao i ever saw. you’re even more broken than i thought.
Kitten✨ yes sir
waifuabuser touch yourself don’t cum until i say and keep talking tell me what you are
She slid her hand into her soaked panties, whimpering as her fingers found her clit.
Kitten✨ i’m a stupid attention whore who gets off on being laughed at i’m a fake little princess who wants to be ruined i’m your pathetic kitten and i deserve this
waifuabuser i dont want your useless gingers to type, put them in your cunt. take a voice note for me, just like the one yesterday
Her fingers trembeled as she pressed record and repeated the lines she just typed, all while her fingers pleasure her dripping pussy
Kitten✨ https://soundgasm.net/u/lunyan/ruin-me
waifuabuser call yourself my discord pig
She sights – why am i even doing this – but she had already her answer as she got closer and closer to cumming while recording the new voice note. She never felt this good touching herself before.
Kitten✨ https://soundgasm.net/u/lunyan/yessir
waifuabuser i’m not stopping you just handed me the keys to every dirty secret you have and you’re too weak to take them back, dont you think so?
Kitten✨ you own me now… i’m too weak please own me
Her hips bucked against her hand. She was close, shame and wine and his cold words twisting tighter in her gut.
waifuabuser cum, pig oink while you do it
She did.. hard, messy, a broken squealing sound escaping her throat as her body shook. When it passed she collapsed forward, forehead on the desk, panting.
waifuabuser good girl but we wont delete this channel. next time your drunk you will sent something new and i will be there, watching you get drunk and disgusting
Kitten✨ yes sir
waifuabuser now go clean yourself up you look like a used toy. we dont want your simps to know your real me .. yet
She stared at the screen, mascara streaked, lipstick smeared, the word DUMB still stark on her skin.
For the first time in years, the hollow feeling was gone. She was satisfied, happy.
And her mod went silent again, like always. Only now she knew he was there. Waiting.